I'm Thankful For The Gift of Goodbye

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 I am thankful for the last couple of years that I have had with my grandmother. I have not always been so thankful for my relationship with my only grandmother.

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My grandmother has been a difficult, hurtful person in my life since I was a child. But now, as she slips in and out of reality, I find a little more tolerance and forgiveness of past transgressions.

As I plan, probably my last trip out to Arizona to assess her condition and help with whatever transition may be needed, I am faced with the sad task of seeing her mentally slip away.

My grandmother was a successful real estate broker who exhibited exceptional warmth and charm to her clients and co-workers. I loved being with her in the company of those many clients.  This was when she was always “at her best”.  Glamorous, funny, charming, witty, all the things I felt I would never be and at times was told I would never be by her.

I am thankful for the understanding “time” has bestowed upon me. I don’t think she ever meant to be cruel. Perhaps she was living her own tortured existence. I think we are able to see these things about our parents, grandparents and siblings when the filter of immaturity is finally lifted from our eyes. I am thankful for that.

I am thankful for the numerous lessons she taught me. She taught me to be frugal with my money, always asking; “Do you absolutely love it? If not, don’t buy it”. Her frugality afforded her the ability to provide for members of my family who should’ve provided for her in her later years.

My trip to Japan with her and my Uncle was under the condition that I pay my own airfare there. This was no small feat when I was in highschool. But I did it! I saved the money and paid for the airfare. This I would've never done had she not taught me how capable I was.

She taught me how to treat clients. She was a master at customer service.

She taught me, inadvertently, to be mindful of others’ moods and non-verbal cues. This has served me well when providing customer service.

She had a wonderful wit and perspective on life. I sometimes see that in myself. Because she told me to always “work on personality” because of how I looked, I did. I cannot say I have a brilliant personality but my friends do, that counts for something, right?

So as she steps in and out of reality I find myself missing her, ALL of her.  Not many of us get a “heads up” that things are heading south. Hopefully, I can catch her one last time before she skips off into her mind to let her know how grateful and thankful I have been for having her as my only grandmother.  For this, I am most thankful.

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James Dray
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Sounds like you have a mixed and powerful range of emotions when speaking about her.  You're a stronger person because of your ability to more or less forgive or forget for the time being about her problems when you were younger

Nov 05, 2011 08:11 AM #1
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Valerie Duncan Stewart
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James: I love her and am anxious for her. Thank you James.

 

Nov 05, 2011 08:27 AM #2
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Sharon Paxson
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HI Valerie - this is a good story,and the lessons of our youth has certainly shaped all of us.

Nov 07, 2011 12:10 PM #3
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Valerie, sometimes our complication relationships are the ones that teach us the most. Good for you for recognizing and appreciating the duality of your relationship with her and for supporting her as she ages.

Nov 07, 2011 07:59 PM #4
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Valerie Duncan Stewart
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Sharon: Gosh, thank you. They are sometimes painful lessons but in the end, it is your takeaway that makes all the difference.

Amy: You couldn't have said it any better. There is a ying and yang to ALL things and the more we recognize them, the better we are in enriching the learrning experience of our lives.

Nov 08, 2011 10:43 AM #5
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Valerie,

That is a wonderfull story and must have been hard to write.  Sadly our family is more important than our customers.  I'm sure she understands the person you have become and appreciates you as well!

Nov 11, 2011 11:04 PM #6
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Valerie Duncan Stewart
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DeeDee,

Thank you for the sentiments.

Nov 14, 2011 06:26 PM #7
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Hope you have lots of fun and food with family and friends. Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Nov 24, 2011 02:12 PM #8
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Valerie, I can so relate to the bittersweet aspects of this. My dad was a child of the depression and fought in 2 wars. He was devout, probably PTSD from combat and from a poor background. However, he worked hard to raise us in the suburbs and couldn't relate to the comparatively easy life his kids had, and that made things harder in many ways. But of course, he had many good qualities and for those I am thankful. All of us graduated college and are gainfully employed, we are good people, or at least try to be, and that is due in large part to parents who made such values a priority. 

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